I got diagnosed with hella Autisim

I don’t know if i have it in me anymore. I used to be able to sit down and punch out some semi-illiterate bullshit and people seemed to love reading it. They would tell me all the time.

But tonight I pulled out the laptop to try and decompress. To evaluate the last two years of my life. But it feels like ther too much. I have no idea where I should start.

And with that said, i don’t know why i’m even trying to write this. Who the fuck is it for?

I don’t hate the world, or the people in it, I’m not that edgy.

But the rules on how to be a functioning human are broken and nobody wants to accept that people just doing normal people shit IS the problem.

Generation after generation of self interested dumb fucking behaviours under the guise of being people. Regionally different morals, values that only make sense from the standpoint of the person holding them.

You cant fix this, it all leads to nowhere.

So we take it out on each other. The blind beating the blind with their collapsable walking stick things. Everyones trying to get somewhere, trampling others to get there, but nobody knows where the fuck they are going.

There is no destination you fuck heads. No goal. It’s all pretend.

Just stop.

Life doesn’t need to be this painful.

Yet there is pain everywhere I look. In everyone I care about.

So I will try and be someone who can be there. Even doing that somehow ends with people hurt, but thats not my problem anymore.

I would love to have a complete mental breakdown sometime but i cant do that while there are people who need me more than I need me.

Anyway keep fighting the good fight friends. I hope whatever side you have picked on whatever issue you feel strongly about comes through with the win and you can make the world a better place.