It’s hard to picture myself as a dad. The idea of somebody looking up to me, listening to my every word and relying on me to educate them about the world, is a scary one.
What the fuck do I know about life?
When Courtney called me up this time around, my reaction was a little less shocked. This is what we wanted. It was time for us to start our family.
But I still had this feeling in my gut. It was different this time. This time i wasn’t scared of having a kid… i was scared of losing it.