This guy learned the ultimate secret to success. Click here to find out…


About that secret..

I read on a blog about blogging that click baity titles like that are how the “pros” do it.



Does anyone else ever look around at the world we live in, and just see one big act?

It’s weird.

Sometimes it doesn’t feel real.

I watch people doing things without ever questioning why they do them.

Or at least not that I know of….

They get up.

They go to work.

They come home.

They watch tv.

They go to sleep.

And they have no trouble sleeping.

Or at least not that I know of…

I can’t help but think. What is their secret?

Are they truly happy?

How do they manage to keep living this boring, controlled, repetitive existence without that existential fear of wasting their lives grabbing them by the balls and twisting them until they can’t manage to get themselves out of bed in the morning.

Or are they just better at ignoring it than I am?

I mean I could probably find ways to keep myself distracted.

Fill my day with hobbies and activities to stop me from overthinking things.

Play bingo or something…

But that won’t stop me from going to this place every time I climb into bed.

Maybe I need to go on a holiday.

It would be great to get away from everything for a while.

But then, that’s not really much of a solution.

Living in hope of getting away from reality for a little while.

I do that every time I play videogames for 6 fucking hours straight.

Same thing isn’t it?

Maybe it’s just the depression talking. Maybe I can just medicate these feelings away.

Maybe I can get drunk? I have fun when I’m drunk and retarded.

But then is that what I want?

To just be content with mediocre?

Be happy that I am not the person I dreamed of becoming?

Be proud that I can’t be the hero that my partner deserves?

To keep doing the same shit every single fucking day, over and over again, without ever really doing anything, until I eventually drop dead?

What is the point?

I should be happy though.

According to society, I’m a white privledged male.

The world has been given to me on a silver platter.

I am in no position to be complaining about my life.

Literally everyone else has it way worse than me.

So why the fuck do I end up in this place all the time?

I just don’t understand what we are doing here.

Why are we living these superficial lives?

Why do we buy things?

Why do we work jobs we don’t enjoy?

Why do we live for holidays?

Why do we mow the fucking lawn?

Seriously… I give zero fucks about grass…

Why have we created this weird culture with ego at its core and materialism as its biggest driving force?

Why do I want to be a part of it?

Jesus Christ I sound like I’m losing it…

I just want to find that sense of purpose that other people seem to have.

That thing.

I don’t even know what the fuck it is.

That thing that will drive me to make a better life for my partner, and myself.

If anyone reading this knows what I’m talking about in this confusing ramble, please share it with me.

I could do with a hint.

Or better yet, an in depth, detailed description.

K thnx

8 thoughts on “This guy learned the ultimate secret to success. Click here to find out…

  1. Hi Nathan,

    Yes, almost everyone knows what you’re talking about. Most people go to jobs they hate and make it through the week because they’ll do things they love on the weekend. You have to pay for the place to sleep and eat so you can get to the good weekend stuff. Then again, some people take great pride in work, usually if they do something with their hands or create something. Some people can’t get jobs that fit that description, so they plant gardens or doing woodwork or mow. Some people take deep pride in their lawns and get great satisfaction out of watching the long grass become piles behind their mower. It’s a repetitive act that requires little thought, and the process is soothing to them.

    I’m wondering if you spend a lot of time on Facebook. Studies show that people who use Facebook are way more likely to be depressed because everyone shares their best pictures and events on there: they got married, went to the beach, ate at a fancy restaurant, kissed their girlfriend, had a baby, bought a house, attended the most bangin’ New Years Eve party, etc.

    Chances are, are you’re not going to be a hero, and thinking that way can be dangerous. You CAN be at ease. Courtney might see that as heroic. Sometimes, doing a new thing can put a person at ease. How did you feel after you made your own dinner and followed a recipe? How did you feel after you went for that hike? The feeling was probably short-lived, only a day or two. But that’s what it’s all about. Your’re not going to do something and feel high off the feeling forever (by the way, no, you should not get wasted). The only people who feel high off of one moment are losers, like Uncle Rico in Napoleon Dynamite. Try new things. Try things that don’t demand too much of you, but have a CLEAR FINISHING POINT. Do you guys have the big color for adults craze in Australia like we have in the U.S.? It’s not that Americans want to revert to being children, it’s a simple process of creating something with a finishing point that may or may not look nice when you’re done. Who cares. You don’t have to capitalize or get something long term out of the things you do. Ask yourself: how accomplished do you feel when you play video games? Is there a clear ending point? That may be why you like them so much. You could transfer that desire to do better and get somewhere that you feel in video games to MORE activities, including video games.

    I know you’ve mentioned many times that you go to a therapist. Have you tried medication? It doesn’t necessarily turn you into a zombie. You ever carry something heavy in one hand, like a really full bag of garbage, and your arm immediately feels better after you dump it in the can? That’s what medicine can feel like.


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    1. I do actually spend a lot of time on Facebook. It does my head in. But it’s habitual. I find myself pulling out my phone and scrolling whenever I have any kind of down time. I’ve de activated it after reading this. Even if only temporarily. See how it goes.

      I do feel good when I complete something. It’s following through that gets me. I’ll either do it once and that’s it, or start it and then give up before I even get close to finishing. I don’t know why I do that.

      I’m putting away the video games too. I mostly play competitive online games, I spend most of that time yelling at the things screen because my teammates suck. I not sure sure I enjoy them as much as I use to. I just do it because I always have and it kills LOTS of time for me.

      I tried medication for a while. I didn’t like it. It didn’t seem to help and I felt like I was going to be sick all the time. But I will talk to the therapist at my next appointment. See if there are any other options available.

      Thank you for taking the time out of your day to write to me. You seem like a very caring person. I really do appreciate it

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      1. You’re welcome. I’ve struggled with anxiety and depression for years, so I know what you’re going through. If you only tried on medication, it may not have been the right one for you. There are lots of them, and they work differently.


  2. Man, unfortunately since I currently relate strongly to this post, I can’t provide any good advice but Melanie seems to have some.

    I hope writing on your blog at least helps you a little bit.

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      1. No need to feel stupid because, as you can see, a lot of people go through the same thing.

        I don’t know if there’s a quick fix but you’re young and, from what I just read in the comments, you’re already taking steps to improve your situation.


  3. Nath I to have asked the same questions as you, WHY this WHY that but if I knew I would be a frigging genius, what I have learned through my life is that I have to except the boring times like I except the exciting times like a son or daughter being born or a new car a grandson or grand daughter,the first piece of fruit on a tree you planted last year,sometimes boring to others but they didn’t plant the tree,at times I get a little bit down and wonder why go to work or why go to the shops, its what we do,its what we do to survive although sometimes boring its also exciting sometimes or fun sometimes. I’m on the downhill run of my life now and I have regrets and disappointments but I also have great memorys and hope to have a few more in the future where as you have a massive amount of living and memorys to build up,as you can read I’m rambling now but I just created another memory. Just get out there mate and do it and try not to over think it, I know about the bed thing going to bed and thinking , I do it to, its a pain in the arse but I’ve had some good Ideas come out of it, oh yea, and some bad ones but what the hell, its just part of who we are.

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