Why does it feel like I have been here before…
I woke up with a hangover this morning. It wasn’t a bad hangover, but I don’t think there is such a thing as a good hangover. I’m going to take an educated guess and say that nobody has ever started a sentence with the words
“I totally love hangovers because…”
Anyway, most people I know tell me the struggle to smoke after a night of heavy drinking. I however, have never had this issue (or blessing). My morning ritual continues even if it is followed by an hour of sticking my head in the toilet bowl.
not this morning though. I promised myself last night that today would be a fresh start.
i held off. I didn’t buy anymore.
In fact today was pretty uneventful. That is a great thing for a no smoking day. I understand that technically this is day one again, as I binged on smokes for the last two nights and my body has been topped up with nicotine for a little while. But today wasn’t as hard as the first day one. I think I might have broken some of my old ques.
Tomorrow has me worried though. Tomorrow is Groovin the moo. This means I will probably end up fairly intoxicated. ‘Uninhibited Nathan’ and ‘staying strong nathan’ aren’t ever really seen at the same time. I’m Kind of like clark Kent and superman. If superman was just a drunk version of Clark who doesnt listen to soaber Clarks plan.
i bought one of those nicotine inhalers specifically for tomorrow. I think it’s my best option for the day. It tastes abit like dirty socks, but it also stings the throat. Kind of like getting a big whiff of chlorine. I don’t understans why all the quit smoking aids have to be so shitty. I tried the nicotine mist once. I remember watching the add. Chick just sprays it in her mouth, then goes about her business like it was nothing. I sprayed that in my mouth one time,and I’m telling you, those adds are very misleading. I began salivating, my entire mouth was burning. I couldn’t stop coughing and gagging. That was after one spray. The instructions told me I had to do it agin! Two sprays…..get fucked.
The mist then became a rather expensive prank that I think I only ever conned my sisters boyfriend into.
“Oi try this, it tastes heaps nice!”
I am hilarious.
In conclusion, today didn’t totally suck, and that is a good thing 🙂 i hope tomorrow is the same, but I have doubts. There’s never going to be a perfect time to quit. I know this now, there will always be stress, or plans to go out, or some excuse to smoke. It just has to be done.